Ripples

This one guy I was texting said my eyes could melt things. haha.

This guy i've got a crush on is talented singer of his band, has a sweet, almost childish humor. I guess I like protective guys, ones who think i'm worth protecting. I sort of got low self esteem so yea. THough I dont like guys who would become insanely jealous though.

ok so in june i will june the army, hopefully. so that will help me out alot. i want to enlist for like 2 years, save every penny i get from there, then get a retail job as i'm writing a novel.

hopefully this works. im so worried.

man on fire. i swear thats just a great movie. oh and DF is in it!

I guess i was scared of staying alone. I was the middle child and my parents were divorced. I was scared of being left out. I knew, or thought, my parents loved me. But i guess a lot of people took control of me. They tricked me into doing stuff for them. I didnt like my childhood.

ugh are you kidding me? Nothing. If i get cremated someone will just accidentally break the vase im in. Even if im burried bugs will go up my nose and ears. hopefully my coffin will be strong. That or become a vampyre.

yes i told my friends about ending to naruto. though i think i told it wrong, so they didnt find out after all. My ex friend told me about the future books after twilight and i stopped reading them. then my other friend did too, but i asked.

Im on day two of the 2468 oh please let me get down there. I want to weigh less. The 2468 helped another friend lose 19 pounds in 3 wks. so i should lose more because i just started fasting.

I gotta take the pills that the doc prescribed to me to take for 5 days. Well yesterday was the last day. If I dont get my period then thats bad and i gotta go see the specialist. ew! i dont want someone looking at me...down there.

sorry. you see the i only get the p once every two months. the doc says thats bad and the pill is supposed to make me. well ugh i dont care if something is wrong with me! i dont want to go!

i am so sorry for you who r reading this. i know i sound so babyish. i dunno. i guess humans do fear what they dont understand.

ugh well at least im on the second day of 2468.

yay.

sorry im not more enthusiastic...

So because my parents suddenly started caring about me. Yes even my stepmom. I am a vegetarian. I tried it for like a month in the summer. So this will be fine. And i hate meat anyways, so this is fine.

Ok, so school starts and well im at school now. SO i usually skip breakfast and lunch here but Pamela (my stepmom) makes really fatty dinners. Like greasy steaks, cheesy macaroni, and like well the veggies are fine i gues...

But anyways I am going to eat below 500 cal. each day. Because Prom's in April and I really want to look good in a dress. Never wear them but everyone's bugging me that it's a once in a lifetime chance, so I will be forced to go probably with my friends. Though my ex has been bugging me. Ugh, hes so needy it bugs the crap outta me!

Well but anyways here are my new stats:

Cw: 189
hw: 215
lw:140
gw: 150
ugw:112

I need to fast a ton though. I went up because i think i was like 185! :E

This sucks, and not the vampiric bite kind...

How to Lose 20 Pounds in a Month.....
*Listed in order of importance
You need to Eat 4 times a day 3-4 hours apart


Why eating 4 times a day helps you lose weight fast...

Eating 4 smaller meals a day gives you a higher metabolism which means... You'll lose
more weight (3 big meals a day slows down your metabolism) and...


Eating 4 times a day keeps you from not getting hungry which means... You won't
overeat and gain weight.


Before each meal you need to....


Eat at least 2 whole raw fruits and/or vegetables - For example you can eat... 2 carrots,
a head of broccoli & a banana, an apple & orange, or either 4 sticks of celery and...


You're going take 1 scoop of any kind of whey protein or Soy protein, mix it in 8 ounces
of water, and drink it.


Why doing this helps you lose weight fast...


Your body has to burn a lot of calories (burn lots of FAT) to digest all the raw fruits &
vegetables you eat and since you're eating them 4 times a day... You're going to lose
weight fast.


Eating raw fruits & veggies (not cooked or steamed) will help you lose weight fast.
FACT: Farmers feed pigs steamed or cooked veggies to fatten them up because they
know raw veggies will slim them down.


Eating raw fruits & veggies, drinking whey or soy protein & ice cold water means...
You'll never get hungry, never have any cravings or a big appetite so... You'll eat less
and lose more weight faster.


Raw fruits & veggies remove toxins from your blood and once these toxins are gone...
The enzymes in the raw fruits & veggies liquefy and flush fat out of your body.




Right after you eat your fruits & veggies and drink your protein... Depending on how
hungry you are (based on scale of 1-10 with 1 being satisfied and 10 being real hungry)
you're going to eat 0-300 more calories of anything you want except for high-sugar stuff
like candy, chocolate, ice cream and fast foods so...


If your hunger level is between 1-3 (based on a hunger scale of 1-10)... eat only 0-150
calories and...


If Your hunger level is between 4-7... Eat only 100-225 calories and...


If Your hunger level is between 8-10... Eat 200-300 calories


Why doing this helps you lose weight fast...


Eating less will help you lose weight fast but don't Worry about getting hungry
because...


When you eat fruits & veggies and protein before all of your 4 meals... This will make
you feel not that hungry or not hungry at all and...


The reason why you need to stay away from candies like skittles, 3 musketeers, tootsie
rolls, and twix & ice cream and fast foods is because these foods make you hungry and
therefore... make you gain weight faster.




You need to drink 70 ounces of ice cold water everyday


Why drinking ice cold water helps you lose weight faster...


Ice cold water raises your metabolism. The colder the water is - The more weight you'll
lose because...


Your body has to keep burning calories (or keep burning fat) to heat the cold water
back up to body temperature and this may be off topic but...


When you drink lots of water plus eat lots of fruits & veggies... You'll detoxify your body
and detoxing helps get rid of cellulite and one side effect of detoxing is rapid weight
loss.


You need to take some Green Tea everyday once in the morning & once in the evening

Why taking Green Tea helps you lose weight faster...

If you did nothing (meaning you didn't exercise or diet) and took only Green Tea -
Studies show you would lose 6 pounds in 10 weeks and 6 pounds in 10 weeks may not
be much but...


Studies also show when you combine Green Tea with a fast weight loss plan like this
one... You will lose 37% more weight or 3-7 more pounds.

You don't have to but...... You need to do 20-30 minutes of power walking right after you
take your morning Green Tea (power walking is when you walk as fast as you can
without running)


Why power walking helps you lose weight fast...


When you power walk first thing in the morning your body has no choice but to burn fat
for energy because...


As you sleep... The energy from the food you ate during the day gets used while you're
sleeping for 6-10 hours.
An Example of What You'll Be Doing Everyday To Lose 20 pounds...
At 7:30am (30 minutes before you eat Breakfast)
You're going to wake up and take some Green Tea and then if you want to... You're
going to go for a 20-30 minute power walk and then at...



8:00am (Breakfast)
You're going to eat at least 2 whole raw fruits and/or veggies and you're going to drink
one scoop of whey protein or Soy protein mixed in water and right after that...

Depending on how hungry you are (see the hunger scale again) you're going to eat a
0-300 calorie breakfast. Then about 4 hours later at...



12:00pm (Lunch):
You're going to have 2 more raw fruits and/or veggies, another scoop of whey protein
or Soy protein mixed in water followed by a 0-300 calorie lunch and then around....



3:30pm (Snack):
You're going to have a 0-300 calorie mid-afternoon snack but, before you do... you're
going to eat 2 whole raw fruits and/or veggies plus your 1 scoop of whey protein or Soy
protein mixed in water. Then around...



6-6:30pm (30 minutes before Dinner)
You're going to take some more Green Tea and 30 minutes after you take your Green
Tea at...



6:30 -7pm: (Dinner)
You're going to eat a 0-300 calorie dinner, but right before dinner you're going to eat
your raw fruits and/or veggies and one scoop of whey protein or Soy protein mixed in
water and...

That's All You Got To Do To Lose 20 lbs. Fast And...


Here's 5 more tips you can use to lose even more weight while
you're on this fast weight loss plan...


Tip #1 Take two teaspoons of apple cider vinegar with water before each of your 4
meals. Apple Cider vinegar has high levels of potassium, which has an antiseptic
quality to help eliminate fat deposits.

Tip #2
Power walk twice a day instead of once in the morning.

Remember, you don't have to power walk, but power walking once in the morning and
in the evening (right after you have your Green Tea) can help you lose even more
weight.

Bonus Power Walking Tip: Power walk up & down hills to build nice lean looking hips,
inner thighs, and butt.


Tip #3
Eat and walk - You'll burn more calories during digestion if you walk for 10 minutes after
you eat each of your 0-300 calorie meals and...

If you do this 4 times a day after all 4 meals... You'll get in 40 minutes of fat-burning easy
and that's not counting if you decide to power walk or not.


Tip #4
List of weight loss foods you should include in your 0-300 calorie meals

Whole grain cereals like Cheerios
Eat Nutrigrain bars if you crave candy
Brown rice and rice noodles
Potatoes
Rye crackers, rice cakes and oatcakes
Fresh Fish like Tuna, Herring, and Salmon
Nuts, almonds, cashews or
More fruits & veggies of course
Almonds, cashews, and pecans
Plain popcorn
Baked chicken
Beef Jerky
Beans and lentils


Tip #5
Read How to lose 5 pounds in 2 days 2 days before Your Wedding, High School Reunion
or Trip To The Beach (or whatever reason you're trying to lose weight fast for) to look
your very best

Okay so like two days ago i ended (well my dad made me quit) my fast. I did it for three days. It was fine the first day and the second day was worse but i coped. The third day it was hell but i didnt want to quit yet. i was trying for at least two days to detoxify my body so i could lose weight fast. Well i fasted with my friend and we cracked on the same day so it was cool. though not the cracking part. well i weighed myself and i lost like two pounds! yay! Im so happy. i am so ugly, but i actually was happy (very rare when concerning my weight) when i saw the weight. i was ecstatic, because i only wanted to lose ten pounds as my first goal. only eight more pounds to drop!

so i posted my stats on my last journal entry. but... i need help. my family is a bunch of pigs or cows (whichever you prefer). 
 i need an ana buddy. a texting buddy especially so she (or he) can give me support on the spot. please! ugh i dont want to gain another pound!!

Okay ladies (and guys) my new stats

Hw:215
cw: 185
gw:150

i know its horrible, but i lost twenty pounds and im going to continue this.

awesome site for other proana is faded obsession! i love it!

here are my stats.
CW: 210 (??)
lw: 140
hw:210
gw:135
gw2:129
gw3: 125

i love to cut. i love the pain of it. but my parents took away my knives. then it was that i couldnt get deep enough. thats when i decided to create a place for people like us to get hints for our lovely little obsesion.  

yes i'm different. so who cares. everybody?
this sucks major.
usually people get picked on or they're family hates them because theyre weird looking or are too smart or whatever.
actually thats not me. first of all i love my eyes. theyre plain but theyre my favorite feature. so if i lose a few pounds i will be perfect...well that and my skin. not the color but the blemishes. its terrible. ok i do have 'major problems' or so they say.
i cut and i try to lose weight, but i love it, if u have any thin tips or how to make cutting deeper please comment